Thursday, June 16, 2011

anteater

Salvador Dali took his on walks.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

direction

After a conversation with my friend Anna, who recently began a totally new life in Boston, I feel the need to write.

Now, I am aware that blogging is a fairly narcissistic hobby. Here I am, operating under the assumption that there are people out in cyberspace who actually care about what I have to say. It's pretty ridiculous, but I'm going to write anyway.

I'm going to write anyway because even if no one ever reads this post, sometimes there are thoughts and convictions and emotions worth getting out there. Posting it online is different than writing it in a journal. Somehow the possibility that someone could read this changes how I think about the words I type and my purpose for them.

If you are reading this, it could be that you have never experienced what I am experiencing and today you will learn something new about humanity or, more likely, it could be you are going through exactly what I am. You can read this and know that you are not alone.

I just graduated from college. I feel aimless, purposeless, and quite honestly, very scared. Not like an "I-just-saw-Paranormal-Activity-and-now-I-can't-sleep" scared, but an "I-am-lost-in-the-middle-of-nowhere-my-phone-is-dead-and-I'm-almost-out-of-gas" scared. It's terrifying and, even though I know that I have a ton of support from family and friends, sometimes I can't help but feel incredibly alone. It's a terrible thing to feel so directionless and so clueless about how to get where I'm supposed to be going.

I don't tell myself often enough that there is no one who can guide me better than Christ, the Word. I have also had to remind myself that the Word is what will sustain me during the times that I feel most isolated and insignificant.

It has helped me to read Psalms that were written by David during times that he was desperate and completely alone. In Psalm 13 he writes,

How long, o LORD? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I take counsel in my soul
and have sorrow in my heart all the day?

He gives an example of faith I want to have. One that does not lie stagnant, but constantly seeks the will of the Lord, even during the darkest moments. Leonard Cohen said, "In the broken places, the light shines through." I desire so much to be like David and put my entire trust in the Lord during a time that I feel very lost.

But I have trusted in your steadfast love;
my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.

When we are weakest, God shows his great Strength. God has been so good and faithful so far; who am I to doubt he will show up now?

Thursday, June 2, 2011

hipsters


I'm sort of obsessed with this hipster Disney princess thing.